Day 30: A letter to yourself

Dear Sarah:

You can do it. You can be strong, and confident, and feel good about yourself. You just need to start. It will seem hard and weird in the beginning, but it will become second nature after a while, like most things.

Try to relax. Don't let every little thing stress you out. Take the time to play with your son and give the cuddles he wants. He will only want them while he's little, so cherich them now. Find time for yourself. An hour here or there can make the difference in how you feel. You're not just a mom or wife, you're a person by yourself, and you need to make the time, and take the time, to remember that.

I love you, remember to love yourself.
Sarah

Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself

This could really tie into the day 1 topic: what you hate about yourself.  Because if you hate something, you should try to change it. In a nutshell, I hope to become stronger, and more confident. I want to feel like a confident, strong woman, but the self-doubting not-grown-up-but-not-teenager that I currently feel like most days. How to get there? Haven't a clue.

Day 28: What would you do if you got pregnant (or got someone pregnant) right now?

Sit down and cry. I don't want another child. At least not until this one is sleeping through the night routinely, and eating well. And I am not so stressed about money and life as it currently exists. Then we'll talk.

But if there was an accident, I'd have a good cry. Then start planning for a baby.

Put a coat on!

Attention skanky teenagers: put a coat on! You don't look cool, you look like a freezing hooker! It is no longer tank-top weather!

It is 7 C, which is 45 F for you American readers. With rain and a cold wind. I was cold walking outside in a t-shirt and fleece jacket and wanted a heavy sweater and warmer coat. And then a gang of teenage girls walk by in spaghetti strap tops, freezing their nuts off. Is it a sign I am getting old that I want to yell at them to put a freakin coat on?

Day 27: What's the best thing you've got going for you right now?

Without a doubt, my son. He may be a handful with eating problems and a growing temper tantrum phase, but he's still awesome. He is adorable and cuddly and my little crazy monkey. He is the reason I go to work and come home. No matter what else is going on, he's there wanting a hug and playtime. That makes me smile, and makes everything worth doing.